I got monsters. How 'bout you?
January 23, 2013 3:24 AM Subscribe
began her career as Keith Caputo, founder of the heavy metal band Life of Agony
. In the early 1990s the band became huge in Europe, and the teenage Caputo found herself trapped in the life of a macho metal superstar when what she really wanted was to be a nice young lady attending Julliard. She performed as Keith for over 20 years, then in 2010 Niko Bikialo
's quietly devastating music video for Caputo's song Got Monsters [brief nudity]
put the viewer inside the mind of a transwoman
as she struggles to find her place in the world and make a friend of the stranger she sees in the mirror. A year later, Caputo shocked metal fans when she officially announced she was transitioning
If you'll permit me a moment of self-indulgence... As a transwoman, perhaps the highest praise I can give the Got Monsters
video is that while parts of it are difficult to watch, every moment feels true. The next time somebody asks me what it's really like to be trans, I might just point them to this clip.
"This," I'll say. "Maybe not for everybody, but for me, it's like this. Some days, it hurts like this. And some days, it's this beautiful."