"One day during drill, he threw his gun down, told everyone to go to hell, broke formation, and went to the base library to read. When he was apprehended, he appeared to be deranged, explaining with a perfectly straight face that he was a 'field marshall', and waneted to be confined with the 'other nuts'. His wish was granted, and he was locked up in 0-7 Sick Bar, US Naval Training Station, where day after ay he sat in the lounge, chain-smoking and wondering what was going to happen to him. [...] On April 7, still confined in the Newport mental ward, he wrote G.J. that the split in his 'malleable personality' -- between the sensitivity required by art and the rugged show of masculinity demanded by society -- was was had driven him to a 'schizoid' crack-up. Initially, he accepted his doctors' diagnosis that he was insane, a victim of schizophrenia, but in the pecking order of the asylum no one wants to be called crazy, and Kerouac soon changed his tune. [...] Though the insanity label was humiliating, he went to great lengths to convince the navy doctors that he was crazy, gay, alcoholic, and suicidal -- anything that would get him out of the military. As he later pointed out in The Town and The City, it was academic whether he was actually crazy or just pretending to be. 'In any case it's a withdrawal,' observes the doctor in the novel, 'and it reveals a basic neurotic tendency.'"Sorry for the length, just some context, and too much coffee this morning.
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In a later letter to Cassady, Kerouac described how he and Big Slim hatched a plot to break out of the 'nuthatch' but were apprehended and subsequently transferred to Washington by train accompanied by five guards carrying straitjackets in case they misbhaved. [...] Arriving at Bethesda Naval Hospital in Maryland, he told his doctor that his name was Samuel Johnson and asked to be executed by a firing squad. He added that he couldn't endure naval discinline and asked to be discharged in order to return to the Battle of the Atlantic in the merchant marine. His diagnosis was changed from dementia praecox to 'schizoid personality' with 'angel tendencies'. By angel tendencies, the doctors meant delusional self-aggrandizement, but Kerouac and Ginsberg would later give the word 'angel' a new meaning for their generation.
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In May 1943, the authorities released him, promising an honorable discharge on grounds of 'indifferent character'... [pp. 72-74]
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