说实话,我是下乡以后才找到我的根和我的祖国的。也正是从那个时候,我开始真正理解地球上那些最朴实的人们,并认识到教育和文明的重要性。我学会了怎么克服困难,怎么在政治压力下忍受愤怒、焦虑、羞辱,怎么在个人关系和精神层面上与教育程度不高的农民接近,怎么与他们分享我的感情和想法,怎么能够学会充满希望、宽厚待人、顽强生存,怎么能够保持乐观向上、坚强不屈、自主独立,怎么能够为社会大多数人的利益而努力工作。我在农村里也找到了自己的语言,发现自己的母语就是农民的语言。但是当我把这个语言转换成音乐后,发现这与我每天练的曲子并不相同。正因为如此,我必须强化我的学习深度和广度,以求找到一种途径,能够在我的音乐中真正融合西方和东方的音乐,并且能够很好地表达我自己
To be honest, it was only after I was sent down to the countryside that I found my roots and my mother country. And it was from just this period of time that I began to truly understand those people who are the most simple and honest in our world, and when I became aware of the importance of culture and civilisation. I learned how to overcome hardships; how to bear up to anger, anxiety and humiliation under political pressure; how to become closer to peasants with lower levels of education than my own in terms of both individual relationships and on a spiritual level, how to share with them my thoughts and feelings; how to learn to live on stubbornly, full of hope and treating others generously; how to stay positive, steadfast and independent; how to work for the benefit of the great majority of people in society. It was also in the countryside where I found my own language, where I realised that my mother tongue was the language of the peasants. But when I took this language and turned it into music, I discovered it was something different to the tunes I practised every day. This is why I have to intensify the depth and breadth of how I study, with a view to finding a path whereby I will be able to truly blend East and West in my music and be able to properly express myself.I've met a lot of people who came through those times, and read a whole lot of memoirs and historical accounts. The lived experience and legacy of even what seem like the darkest days are never so straightforward as simplistic versions of Chinese people's experience would have you believe (which is not to deny the horrendous shit that did happen).
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