Just a poignant essay about who you think about when big things happen

January 15, 2021 7:47 AM

"I am very persistent about my small, stupid story, about the idea that I’m the main character here, on the couch, looking at my phone, doing nothing at all. All the people I once loved and don’t speak to anymore all crowd in real against the convenient backdrop of these big and horrible days. "
posted by Miko (5 comments total)

Reading Griefbacon regularly feels like having your brain crowbarred open and this is no exception. (To be clear that's a huge compliment.) I've subscribed for years and I now know to wait to read the newsletters until I'm feeling relatively emotionally stable, there are too many head-exploders to quote but for example I think a lot about how every day is a small room.
posted by babelfish at 8:07 AM on January 15, 2021 [3 favorites]

I hope everyone who has ever hurt me is safe tonight.

This is a prayer I have said so many times in the last year. And I'm not typically much of a pray-er.

Thank you for sharing this.
posted by MCMikeNamara at 8:47 AM on January 15, 2021 [4 favorites]

In my early 20s I had one of those super-intense drama-filled chaotic "what was I thinking" kinds of relationships with a guy, which ultimately - of course - crashed and burned. A couple years ago, I was bored and looked him up - and discovered he had just begun serving a 6-year prison sentence for possession of child pornography.

Nevertheless - something I was thinking early on during the pandemic was "yeesh, prisons are getting clobbered by COVID, I ....hope he's okay."
posted by EmpressCallipygos at 9:10 AM on January 15, 2021 [3 favorites]

This spoke to me. Thank you, Miko.
posted by MonkeyToes at 10:41 AM on January 15, 2021 [1 favorite]

I love griefbacon, and the subscriber chats she’s been doing weekly on substack are really nice.
posted by ellieBOA at 10:22 PM on January 15, 2021 [1 favorite]